The tranquil moon..

Lying under the dark night sky and gazing at that dazzling firmament, 
I see the isolated moon amidst those twinkling stars.. 
It seems so romantic, yet so sequestered, 
Infact, it is so quixotic and ambiguous.. 
But, everytime I look at that composed figure, 
I fall in love with its tranquility.. 


It gives a feeling of veracity, yet it is bogus; 
It seems to be so near and evenly smiling at you, yet it is so far.. 
It provides the most passionate atmosphere for people in love, 
It makes them feel the love present in its calmness, 
But, every time I look at that composed figure, 
I fall in love with its tranquility.. 

It offers the most secluded place for a broken-hearted; 
It appeases the traumatised, placates the troubled, 
And it mollifies the despondent, 
It helps forget all melancholies through its pacifying nature, 
But, everytime I look at that composed figure, 
I fall in love with its tranquility..

Friendship into love, possible?

It was the Diwali night and Riya was standing in her balcony seeing that new look of the city in the festive eve. The rustling sound of crackers and the lightning in the sky was spellbinding. She just sat there trying to remember some memories of the last Diwali she had with her best friend, Sumit. “A memorable one it was …” she murmured and sighed.

            She had often heard people saying that having a best friend who loved and cared for you was much better than having a boyfriend who didn’t guarantee to stay forever because as the reality was friendship offered more loyalty than any lover could ever give. Same was her case; she had found that best friend cum lover in her best friend and she was more than happy with that feeling. They used to spend hours together- teasing each other, caring for each other but they weren’t in a relationship. People would often comment on the bond they shared and on the fact that they were so guileless with each other but this never bothered them. They were happy in their own world in which they didn’t give a damn of what’s happening in the world. In fact, they complimented each other’s life and were the happiest people to be ever found …

But, sometimes, as it’s said, destiny makes people meet but doesn’t let them to be together. Riya and Sunit were the victim of the game cruelly played by destiny. Many sorts of misunderstandings had crept up in the bond which was unbreakable and everything had shattered in their life. Riya had fallen for her best friend and she was afraid of letting him know about her feelings’. She tried to distance herself from the guy she loved because she knew that Sumit loved some other girl. He had shared his feelings’ about some other girl with her. As such, she didn’t want to spoil Sumit’s life and wanted him to be happy. So she moved away from his life. This resulted in a disastrous situation and the bond that they shared had started to weaken. As the days progressed, Sumit tried more to court that other girl by taking advices from Riya about the same and it was becoming unbearable for the girl to take all this and see her love fall for someone else. A day came, when someone told Riya that Sumit had got into a relationship with that girl and this broke her already broken heart to small bits. Though she herself wanted Sumit to settle but she knew that she would never be happy without him.

It was impossible for her to accept the fact that Sumit could never be her boyfriend and she stopped taking Sumit’s call. She stopped replying to his texts; Sumit tried his best to maintain both relations with his girlfriend and his best friend but love always ruins friendship and Sumit got drifted from Riya due to his newly found relationship and Riya was unable to take it more. It was intolerable for her to see Sumit smiling with another girl and giving all his time to her. She loved Sumit selflessly and wanted him to be happy with his girlfriend.

Riya changed her number without informing Sumit and went her way. She wanted Sumit to be happy always in his life and she preferred to put all her happiness at stake for him, for her best friend and the love of her life.  Destiny had compelled them to part ways and they were left with no other option.

            Riya closed her eyes remembering the scintillating Diwali she had with her best buddy, Sumit, the very last year before they parted ways six months ago. Suddenly she heard her little brother calling, “Di, I wanna go out to see these crackers please, c’mon let’s go …” Riya was in no mood to relive the moments of the past year and she wanted to be alone this year with her loneliness and her saved up memories and so she let down her brother’s wish asking him to go away and leave her all alone. But, her seven year old brother was not the one to understand the situation and since she loved her brother the most, after losing her parents in the car blast many years ago, she had to make him happy. So, she complied with his wish and went to the chowk where scores of crackers were being lighted giving the atmosphere a dazzling look. Her brother went on running everywhere trying to see everything and she found her happiness by giving all joys to this little one.

            As she kept on wandering in the lighted streets, she suddenly bumped and fell on the road. She was hurt and had tears in her eyes while her brother was nowhere to be seen. She was tensed and was unable to stand up, walk and look for the latter. She tried her best when she sensed a hand in her arms helping her get up. A bit comforted by the warmth, she stood up to look at the face of the beneficiary at the time of need. Her eyes met with his and she saw a face well known to her.

Yeah! It was Sumit, her love and her life whom she had left months ago. It was the same adorable face with the deepest eyes smiling at her. It was the same strong hands supporting her to get up just like it used to happen six months ago. She was shocked and was awestruck by seeing him. Words weren’t coming out from her mouth and all she could whisper was, “Sss … uummmitttt …” He was happy too, she could sense the sparkle in his eyes. She was in loss of words and had been lost in those memories of the past when Sumit shook her arms gently trying to make her come back to the reality. There were numerous questions in her mind and she couldn’t ask any and she heard his voice, “How are you? Did you find your prince charming?”

            Once again, Riya felt numb. She had no answers as she still loved him. She tried to reciprocate but no sound escaped her mouth. The power of her gallant love was what she had never known before. She hugged him tight. There were tears in those beautiful, limpid eyes and she muttered “I loved you Sumit and I still do …” in his ears.  There was so much she wanted to say to him but her words were not contemplating with her feelings’. She had finally confessed her feelings’ after months of silence and she felt herself relieved. But, she regretted the very next moment for her absurd behaviour. A bit disheartened, she realized that Sumit had been in a relationship and this could ruin his life. She was in her own thoughts and her own little world where her heart and her mind where giving different opinions of what she had said to him when a voice left her bizarre. Sumit had responded with “I love you too …”

            Riya couldn’t believe her ears on hearing Sumit’s words and loosened her grip on his body. She parted herself from him and looked at his eyes intensely trying to understand whether whatever she heard was true or just an illusion of her own feelings’. But, with one glimpse of his smiling face, she knew that it was the reality and her Sumit was back. She asked him if whatever she heard was true and he gave an affirmative answer.

He said, “I realized my love, my feelings’ for you after you went away. I had never actually loved that girl I was in a relationship with. I could never find that frankness with her which I found with you. I could never love her like I loved you. I could never try to create a bond with her which I had created with you … Yes! I love you Riya. I have been trying to contact you since three months but have been unsuccessful. You changed your number, blocked me on face book and went away from my life like you never existed. I am sorry I could understand my own feelings’ for you… But, its high time, might be destiny wanted us to be together. I want you to be my life partner, will you be?” 

The long lost dream of Riya was going to be true after a silence of six months and her self-effacing love was going to be bear fruits now. She replied affirmatively and soon enough, her lips were wet with his. They kissed in the crowded chowk itself and this lip-lock signified the reunion of two lost lovers. They broke the kiss to see a cracker lighted on the sky just like the one which she had witnessed with Sumit the last year and hugged him again. This time the hug melted them into others’ arms and they were the gladdest couple on Earth. :)

The girl who lived...

There, once lived a girl,

A girl so beautiful, so charming,

A girl as white as milk and as precious as a gem…

A girl so enthralling yet so simple…

A girl of everyone’s dreams’…

She lived happily, with her family,

Her mamma, her dad and her lil brother…

She loved them, more than anyone could ever love,

They were her world, her life and the basis of her existence…

But, she had stalkers following her, because she was beautiful,

The ones who were impolite, who knew about her whereabouts,

The ones who tried to track her every move, every location…

She was scared…

She tried to run away but the raucous guys didn’t stop following her,

She didn’t tell anything to her family,

She was scared of ruining her status in the society,

She stayed quiet… Cuz she was terrified…

The situation ruined, the stalkers made it difficult for her to go out…

They proposed her in the market, held her hand in front of the crowd…

They spent hours in front of her house; they harassed her lil brother,

She couldn’t take it more…

It was getting too much,

So, she slapped the guy at the market…

The situation ruined, the guy forgot his courtesy,

He trailed her every now and then,

He offended her in front of her friends…

And the news reached her father,

Her father kept her locked in her room,

Her father stopped her from going out,

He was afraid…

After all the family’s prestige was at stake…

He taunted the beautiful daughter for her fault…

But she wasn’t at fault, she knew…

The fault lied in that beautiful face, which she was born with,

She regretted being attractive to boy’s eyes…

And she could take it no more,

She went to her room and smudged that beautiful face,

She wanted to kill the culprit…

She pierced the knife on her flawless face,

Blood poured down from her cheeks,

She cried, but no one was there to hear her in that locked room,

And she was successful,

She killed the very face she was proud of,

He killed her soul, she killed her spirit…

Yet, she lived,

She lived as the girl who regretted being born beautiful…

She lived being maimed and crying on the bed...

She lived now, as the ugly girl with scars on her face…

She lived now with no one following her… ….

Book Review – Flirting with Fate – Karma always returns!

About the book – To what extent can one go for one, to be accepted and to be happy? Can we commit any crime anywhere, anytime and away from it?
Well… Anand does that…
A beautiful looking boy is adopted but is deprived of love and acceptance. And in search of it all, he takes up that easy path of crime – bloodshed, theft, rape, lies- from his mother’s figure, to his teacher’s and to his first love. Anand does just about anything possible to get that long lost love, acceptance and happiness….
But, the real question, don’t we do all that too?
And has it all – money, women, power but is he really happy with this life? He cleverly escapes the law, camouflages his crimes but can he escape his fate?
Join Anand in his journey which is a mirror of our souls – a mixture of our suppressed emotions, angers, fears, desires, lust, passion, love and hatred. Will you think twice before committing a crime or telling a lie? Do we really reap what we sow?
Does Karma returns or is it just a myth? Does Anand pay for what he has done or does he also gets away, like most of us? Let’s find out- It’s about time…

About the author –Preeti Singh, as per her words, is a bindass born free woman who scribbles anything that comes to her mind without that obligation of whether it makes sense or not. The only reason behind that is she loves to write from her heart, without using an ounce of her rarely awake brain.

Snuggled happily in the lap of the beautiful City, Chandigarh, Preeti Singh has been a freelance writer since the last 15 years till she decided to write a book, before her call comes towards her final journey.

“Flirting with fate” is her debut crime novel. Why crime? Well, mysteries and crimes have always lit the fire within her to discover the truth. And with her strong belief in Karma returning, she is simply flowing with words in this novel. When she’s not day dreaming and writing, Preeti loves enjoying music, nagging her teenage daughter, not entering the kitchen but playing with her dog, Amber Singh, who is an inquisitive and humorous character in her debut book, “Flirting with Fate”.

My reviews-  I love reading, no doubt, but recently, I have mostly picked up love stories, but, this was an exception! I came about this exciting thriller via face book and couldn’t stop myself from ordering it soon enough and well, I didn't regret the choice I made by giving preference to this crime thriller. In fact, this is one such book which you would like to read at one sitting as the story line grips you hard and you are determined to know what role Karma plays at the end. I loved the way, Preeti Ma’am described Anand’s character and how he ruins it all in the search of love, acceptance, and happiness without wondering about the results. Again, the climax was well described but it was so emotional and something, you wouldn’t expect in the wildest of dreams. The complete book comprising of 237 pages were full of suspense. After reading the book, I had both happiness and sadness on my face and I loved reading this adventurous story by the debut author. 

In a nutshell, “Flirting with fate” is a great novel which teaches you some of the bitter truths of life and given this chance, I would rate this interesting piece of literature a 3.5 out of 5.

I am Heartless - A Real Confession!

I could neither speak in words, nor could ever write it down

the loneliness, the emptiness your absence left behind....

Those moments spent in the warmth of your cuddle

still linger in a cruel heart...... in a guilty mind!!!

Whenever I dream, I see you so tranquil

can I trace the reason of my going away and getting back never?

If by closing my eyes I see you happy sweetheart,

I promise I shall close my eyes FOREVER! 

About the book - These lines have been taken from “I am Heartless – A Real Confession” by a debut author Vinit K. Bansal. The book revolves around our protagonist, Viren, who keeps dreaming about his so called Pari, the fantasy on which he had lived his life. He believes that one day, his dreams would come true when he would meet the love of his life and that this Pari would set everything right in his not so perfect life. Finally, he ends up finding up his Pari in a friend called Rashi but as luck would have it, Rashi doesn’t find her prince in Viren and ends up in a relationship with another guy. Viren is hurt at this panorama but still keeps waiting for her for one and a half years. During this time, another girl called Manasi falls for Viren with all her heart and soul. She seems to be an idol of pure, selfless love who doesn’t expect anything from Viren in lieu of her love. Now, the real question is whether Viren will realize that Rashi is not his Pari and go for Manasi? Will he realize Manasi’s gallant love from him? Will they remain happily ever after? The answers to these are all hidden in this masterpiece.

About the author - Vinit K. Bansal, born in Tohana (Haryana), is fond of reading, writing and composing stories since childhood. He earned his Master’s degree from Kurukshetra University and was bestowed awards both at college and university level. He continues to nurture his dream of writing till today and has succeeded in giving shape to his thoughts in this book. As a voracious reader and an avid writer, his vision extends to the realm of social service too. In his own words, “I derive inspiration from India's former President, Prof. APJ Abdul Kalam.” At present, he is working with the State Bank of India in Delhi and loves to pen down his thoughts whenever he finds time.

My views- The book, which is already a national bestseller, is truly one of a kind. The vocabulary used is fabulous along with the breath-taking story line. The poems, similar to the one I wrote above, finds place in many instances and they add to the beauty to this book. The confession of the author, at the end of the book, is a significant part of the book. This novel runs up especially to those readers who take their loved ones for granted instead of paying any heed to them. It teaches people (like me) a great lesson on love. As a reader, I would rate this book as 4 out of 5. In a nutshell, this book is a must read by all and readers wont regret investing on it.

Love... Takes a lifetime to be proved!

Sitting in the dressing chair and brushing my hair, I heard his voice coming from the drawing home, “Shona, are you ready?” called Yash. “Almost”, I replied, as Yash came into our room and hugged me from behind kissing on my neck. “Happy Birthday Ashi, I promise you are going to love each and every moment of today”. It was my birthday and my husband had planned something extraordinary for me without even giving me a hint of what was in his mind. We now had been together for five years but never anything like this had happened before and everything had come as a shock to me. Nevertheless, it was his plan and I was expecting something good from him although the only thing running in my mind at that moment was what it was actually.

I am sorry ...

I  am sorry I wasted your time and money; I am sorry I was not as per your expectations; I am sorry I still love you; I am sorry I fought for you; I am sorry I thought we were inseparable; I am sorry I hurt you loving more; I am sorry I shouted on you; I am sorry I always understand your love behind your anger and thought the same in return; I am sorry I hurt myself in love; I am sorry for every moment when I crave for you; I am sorry I can’t forget you; I am sorry I wanted to marry you; I am sorry I messed up your life; I am sorry that i cry for you; I am sorry I remember every moment I spent with you; I am sorry I waited for you knowing you will never come back; I am sorry I devoted myself to you; I am sorry I still miss you; I am sorry I don’t just understand that you have moved on in your life; I am sorry I can’t live without you; I am sorry everything hurts me without you; I am sorry I thought you will pick me up when you will find that I am falling apart; I am sorry I thought you will miss me; I am sorry I thought you will remember my all silly things I did just for you; I am sorry I thought you will never leave me because I never left you; I am sorry I thought you won’t give up on me because I never gave up on you; I am sorry I thought you will forgive me knowing the fact that I am not perfect.

          I am sorry I thought if I beg and plead then your heart will melt after seeing me in pain; I am sorry I thought that I do matter to you; I am sorry I am hurt; I am sorry I thought you are my life; I am sorry I have no regret for betraying you; I am sorry I thought my tears will matter to you; I am sorry I thought if we both are crying, you will wipe my tears first; I am sorry I thought you will remember how much I loved you; I am sorry I thought you will understand, I want everything perfect just for you; I am sorry I thought I can’t be replaced because I didn’t think you would be replaced in my life; I am sorry I thought you will hold my hand when I am trembling; I am sorry I thought you understand how much I love you when I run behind you; I am sorry I thought people can’t influence you; I am sorry I thought you will forgive me when I show you my scars and say sorry; I am sorry I thought my apologies and good intentions matter to you; I am sorry I thought if I open my heart and show you my wounds you will hug me and erase the pain and heal them; I am sorry I thought you will say you hurt me but we both loved each other and you can’t stay without me so I am here for you and I love you too.

          I am sorry I thought I can rest on your shoulders and cry and tell you I am tired; I am sorry I never thought you will leave me because I don’t chose anyone else over you; I am sorry I thought you can’t live without me as I can’t live without you; I am sorry I thought my words mattered to you; I am sorry I thought if when I need you, u will be there and you will feel my pain and see that I am hurt; I am sorry I thought you will find me struggling for you; I am sorry I thought we will weather any troubles in our relationship; I am sorry I showed you how weak and helpless I am without you and I thought that you will save me; I am sorry I thought you’ll understand that I loved you more than anything and am all alone without you; I am sorry I thought you will care for me when we both are hurt; I am sorry I thought you will save me from being insane; I am sorry I thought it’s you and me against the world; I am sorry I have no one without you; I am sorry I thought you understand that I keep running behind you; I am sorry I have lost my mind; I am sorry I love you so much that I feel like killing myself due to the pain…

                                                                      

                                                               I AM SORRY! :(

Being Single ...

Most of us, including me, would like to enter into another (or first) meaningful relationship. The key word here is meaningful. We need to be comfortable with who we are, and with being alone, before we go searching for a partner in life.

               Before we start a meaningful relationship, we have to learn to like ourselves. Until we can do that, we wouldn't be able to love someone else. If we want real love, then we need to have enough self-confidence, and self-respect to unconditionally accept the other person for who they are. That doesn't mean we have to be conceited, just that we respect, and trust ourselves, while accepting the fact that we aren't perfect and we can never be that perfect as we desire. A side benefit to this is that we will be more relaxed, and comfortable around other people, and so are more likely to attract members of the opposite sex.

               Being alone is not necessary a bad thing. The general consensus seems to be that if we are alone, we must be lonely, but the two are not the same thing. If you are divorced, separated, or have ended a good relationship, then think back, weren't there times that you wished you where single, because the relationship was preventing you from doing some of the things you want to do. So, now is your chance to do them. Whatever it is that you felt your relationship was stopping you from doing, you are free to do now. There's nothing stopping you. Sure, you may have financial obligations, and maybe children to consider, but the point is, while we are single we might as well take advantage of it, and learn to be comfortable with it.

               If we can be comfortable with being alone, and with who we are, the next section will probably take care of itself, but I'll touch on it anyway. We have to be careful not to search too desperately for love, but instead we should just be open to it. Don't fall in love with being in love! Let's enjoy being single. We can go on dates, make new friends, and just go out, and have a good time, without expecting everyone we meet to fall in love with us, or even want to date us. Accept people for who they are, and just enjoy their company. Eventually we'll meet that someone special.

               It's especially tempting after a breakup to go out and find someone else to love. That's like getting a new puppy to replace the one that got ran over by a truck. Don't do it! If friendship develops into something more, that's great, but be careful not to use someone to fill the emptiness you might feel now. That type of relationship is almost guaranteed to fail.

               It may seem like I'm saying that we should avoid relationships altogether. That's not the case, what I'm trying to say is that, we need to be content with ourselves so that we avoid getting into a relationship that's based on something other than love.

               OK, now that we've accomplished that, how do we go about finding the perfect match? Where can we find this person? The usual advice seems to be at malls, libraries, bars, and any other place that has a lot of people. Unfortunately even if our perfect match is at these places when we are, odds are against us meeting them. Instead take dance classes, join a club, take a course, or just about anything that you might be interested in, as long as it includes other people. Put yourself in a situation that's going to enable you to meet people with similar interests, and at the very least you'll make some new friends. Don't do these things with the sole intention of finding someone to fall in love with, instead use it as an opportunity to have some fun, and make new friends as truly said by someone, “Enjoy your life as much as you can till you are single, because becoming single once again is very painful.” J

Broken... yet living...

This piece of writing goes out to all of the people who have been broken but have been strong enough to let go and still live. This is for those people who have been hurt so badly that they felt that they could never love again, but kept their head up; who learned from their mistakes and never stopped moving forward, even when they took two steps back.

This is for those people that wish loneliness wasn’t a part of them, but put up with it anyhow and who are okay with taking up all of the room in the bed, even if it sometimes feels a little empty; for the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but smile anyway; for the people who periodically miss the past, but are so much more excited for the future; for the people that have wounds still healing; for the people that have so much tied to their past relationship, but break those chains to start fresh.

I write this for those people that want to look back so badly, but focus on the road ahead; for the people that pick up the phone and are tempted to call, but keep their dignity intact instead; for the people that never wanted to let go, but had to; for the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart has endured; for all the people that gave up not because they were weak, but because most times, it’s better just to let go and for the people who are just like me and who have been through the worst of the times…

 We all will get our happy ending someday.  Someday all our wishes will come true and someday we’ll be happy like we have never been before! :)

Loneliness...

I remember us,
In the light of day..
Then darkness descended
As you walked away...


I wish I could go back,
to where it all began,
to days filled with "i love you"
and walks in the sand...


I want to ask
where i went wrong
but don't say anything
at all...

Now my nights are lonely
there's no one to hold

the way that I am living
still secrets untold


I lie around in bed all day
just staring at the walls
holding on to someone
that has long been gone


days are as cold as winter
my heart is turning to ice
why did you take
the warmth from my life


This loneliness is overwhelming
At times I can't breath
all i need is you
to bring me relief
this is where our story ends ...
and no of course
we cant be FRIENDS ... :

What was my fault??

I am sitting alone in this little drizzle and starless night on a cold bench. The rain seems to be compensating to the silent tears falling off from my eyes. Life, actually has changed drastically after he left me alone in this strange world where I seem to be so lonely and alone without a single soul understanding me. Although he promised me that he would forever be there for me by my side; understand my feelings; forgive all my faults but all he did was leaving me alone without fulfilling those promises.

                    "What was my fault..??" , This is the only question which pops up in my mind every now and then; which runs through my thoughts every time I sit alone trying to remember the times we spent together. "Was our love so weak? Were all those promises meant to be broken??" I ask myself but am left unanswered. All I can do now is just try and accommodate myself to this present situation; where I am so lonely and alone; where I find no one to listen to my wails. It is not easy; in fact it is the toughest task I had ever done but still I know that I have to live, for myself, for him.

                      Unable to stop my tears falling off, I shut my eyes close for them to flow off. This feeling is not wanted because it tears me apart; it tears that broken heart into small pieces but then something around me seems to change; my mood changes and I see him standing some feet away from me and slowing calling "Shona, I'm here for you baby..." He comes closer; close enough for a hug and hugs me tight. My tears flows more rapidly with this heart warming hug and wets his shirt. He asked me to stop crying and gently wipes those tears off. The hug melts me in those strong arms and I feel safer than I had ever been before. He comes more close while his lips tends to be touching mine. I find myself in loss of words to express my feelings. He holds me tight from my waist and gently caresses my lips with his own. He tries to bite my lips slowly. I open my eyes to find him staring at me lovingly. He whispers, "I am sorry baby; I am always with you even if you don't find me present physically; Please stop crying". He wipes off my half tried tears and kisses my forehead.

                      It just feels so good to be in his arms again. I find all those memories reviving again and it seems that life is at track again. This feeling, truly, is so much better than the loneliness that I have been suffering from in the past days. He holds my hands and we sit together in the cold bench. We keep talking as I rest my head on his shoulders. A drop of tear escapes my eyes. This was the tear signifying our reunion. But he catches that midway and tells me never to cry again as he would be with me forever. I lean myself more onto him while he embraces me lightly. I don't know when sleep overtakes my tears but I wake up to the touch of his lips on my cheeks.

                      But, as soon as I open my eyes, I find no sign of him around me. he wasn't there embracing me and kissing me; I find myself in that starless night alone with no soul around me. I realize that it had all been a dream; a heart throbbing dream which, I knew, would never be true;  a dream which existed only in my memories and it was something which had no similarity with the reality.

                      Yeah, he had actually gone away for his own happiness; he had gone away to live his own life and I was just left alone in my own little world which was so full if emptiness. My life had just become a hell with his departure; but I was so sure within myself that I could never forget his touches and his embraces. My life could never be that happy and cheerful again without him in it.

                       Crying loudly to relieve myself of this pain, all I could once again ask myself was. "What was my fault...???" </3 :(